10 years...ouch. So much has changed in that time. It's so hard knowing you aren't here to see your boys grow up and see Samantha. Mom and Dad struggle so much missing you. Amanda is a mess too. I try to pretend to be strong for all of them, but the truth is that I MISS YOU!! There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you, even after 10 years. We fought a lot as kids but we were also best friends as kids. We played barbies and football together. You were the worst babysitter my kids ever had! HA! But you loved them with crazy intensity and they were young when you were called but they miss you too! Ryker talks about you a lot. I know you never got to meet him but I sure feel like he knows you. I try to hold on to the fact that I do believe I will see you again but the pain is still very real and hurts a lot.

Wow! It's been 5 1/2 years... I miss you as much today as I did then...maybe more. I so wish you could see these rotten nephews of yours! They look and act just like you! And lyvvie is growing up so fast. She's going to start driving soon and is talking to boys. Sure wish you were here to help me protect her. Joe is very athletic and really enjoys basketball. They miss you so much uncle!! I just watched the video of you changing Rylee and man I miss hearing your voice. Rylee and Bracken and Kayden are growing up too fast too. I know you are watching over them but stay extra close to little rylee. He's been missing his daddy so much!! Give sam and momma and dad some hugs and love too. They need you!!! Amanda is doing great and danny is too. They've found sean who seems to be doing really well with them. I love you Bubba!! Please be with each of us and thanks for being the best guardian angel!!

Today marks the second Angelversary of my son Eric. It has been a hard day, but I spent it with his son's and it was great when Rylee was telling me about his daddy. I miss you so much Eric. I love you with all my heart.