10 years...ouch. So much has changed in that time. It's so hard knowing you aren't here to see your boys grow up and see Samantha. Mom and Dad struggle so much missing you. Amanda is a mess too. I try to pretend to be strong for all of them, but the truth is that I MISS YOU!! There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you, even after 10 years. We fought a lot as kids but we were also best friends as kids. We played barbies and football together. You were the worst babysitter my kids ever had! HA! But you loved them with crazy intensity and they were young when you were called but they miss you too! Ryker talks about you a lot. I know you never got to meet him but I sure feel like he knows you. I try to hold on to the fact that I do believe I will see you again but the pain is still very real and hurts a lot.